..dots and lines in chena's sky...

A lot has been going on around me lately.. Yup, around me being the operative phrase because, somehow, I'm like spaced out while everything and everyone's rapidly moving around me, or shall I say moving away from me. So many people leaving or thinking of leaving the company, some more people going through drastic changes in their personal lives, while I'm standing in the middle of it all, dazed.

Not that nothing's going on in my life, I do have my share of personal issues and most of them are pretty big issues, mind you- but somehow the goings-on in everyone else's life gets the best of me and overshadows my own issues. I guess this just happens to be the time for major changes. Changes tend to be overwhelming most of the time, especially when they involve something or someone you've been too familiar with for quite a time already.

But these are part of life I know and I just have to deal with them. I'm not complaining or anything, I'm just psyching myself into accepting that the world simply has to move on, things and people have to change and you just have to go with the flow..I often have this urge of slowing down or just standing still to pause and watch the world go by. I somehow want to have just a few moments to look at things from a fairly objective distance and just watch, watch, and watch the world go on around me. What would the world be like without me? It will go on just the same, of course.

But this is just me overthinking, silly me contemplating nonsense (is that possible?) So what the heck, let's just get on with this and move on. Life IS complicated. Maybe that's why trivial stuff and simple joys exist, to keep us going when we it seems like we are just running on reserve fuel, when everything we do feels mechanical.

"Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate."- Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy